Changing positions

     When I was a young girl i had an obsession with anything that was pink .Pink sparkles pink glitter pink sequins etc.I was an only child so you can imagine how spoiled I was and what my room looked like I said I liked the color pink. Of course the reason why I got all this stuff was because I was a top student with the highest marks on everything I did and at the end of the year I was the only one in the whole second grade to get straight A's on my report card.Basically I was the American version of a teachers pet.Strange I know . As I walked out of my second grade felling proud and accomplished I had also walked out with a case of arrogant lazynessand the feeling that I've studied hard enough lets just chill out and do no work over the summer.So there i was lounging in my room all summer break thinking of things a girl my age would be thinking about.I wonder if I should buy the new Hannah Montana CD? Or I could always ask mommy to buy me barbie princess instead ?Or maybe mommy could buy me both!?! I wonder if i will be a princess when I grow up?Like I said I was a spoiled brat .


       When I got to school the next year my three teachers where Miss Davis Madame Bastien Monsieur Uzzenni. That was the year the chance of me ever getting a good grade when down the drain.Sure I was still capable of doing it but it became much harder.That was the year me and my mom had our first true fight.After that I never got the top marks and if I got an A on a report card I should get down on my knees and praise Hashem .After all at that point it didn't even matter .As I went into the six grade meeting new people was hard and having Friends move or transfer was hard just like not being Friends with anyone in the class was hard. I was a parsley dead flower in the middle of a mile long blooming flower field . And I would spend my time in class doodling singing to whatever song was on the radio at the time or writing poems in class attempting songs but that didn't come until I had something to write about since seventh grade was the dramatic turning point of my life. As my personality grew so did everything around me . Cause in the 6th grade I  finally realized this is who I am I'm not a soulless person I have personality I have talent I have edge shout I felt like I could reach the moon if I really tyred. I was just waiting for seventh grade as I said it the ring of it warmed the inside of my heart knowing that the next year I would turn into the true Anais that everyone was waiting for and just as I suspected
   

      Wazzam! that's what happened everyone turned into my friend everyone had a new grown respect for me everyone trusted .I had bloomed back int the flower I was in the fifth grade and I liked it life was great .But in the summer of 2010 disaster struck my family my grandmother had passed away . It was a great shock to me and my family even thought I only new her for so little and there was so much I should have done with my grandmother  hopes that her memory would return hopes that we could retain a conversation just like when I was little hopes and dreams crushed in a split second and I can imagine worst for my mother and my three aunts .And two weeks before my mom was gonna leave for Israel to see my grandmother to weeks before my grandmother even died it happened .We went to go see if there was a Hebrew class at chabad downtown turns out we were a day late and the class was the night before we went .We talked to the Rabbi's wife and she strated telling us how her mother and father  had this big school and we should really go check it out  and she will even give us  tour.Well everyone was on break and I went to go see the school not even knowing if I would end up there thinking I was just browsing and I was going to my old school in three weeks.But as I steeped out of the car and onto the floor I got a conferting feeling reassuring me that this is where I would end up whether I liked it or not.The week my grandmother died was the week I got signed legally into Chabad Hebrew Academy .And the week that i started school was the week my mom had to leave having my dad take care of me accompanying me on my first two weeks of my year long journey at my school. That basically sums up Anais and her story.